I constantly struggle with the battle between the man I once was, and the man I want to be. I always had “faith” in God, but he was not a priority, it was just a thing I said I was, “Oh ya I’m a Christian”, not thinking about how my actions defined what I was calling myself, partying, being in unhealthy relationships, cussing, and living life the way I wanted. Now that I have given my life to Christ completely and want to follow the calling He has for my life, now that I have my own walk with Jesus, the statement is not “I am a Christian anymore, its I am a Child of God” I want my actions to align with who I am, a child of the one True King, put on Earth to glorify Him.
Now the issue is feeling hypocritical of putting out the message that the things I used to do are wrong, how can I witness to someone when they saw me living the way I used too. I felt this way a lot lately and just because I lived that way before, doesn’t mean I live that way now. We all have two chapters in our life, I like to think about it this way, a BC and an AD. We have a our “Before Christ”, before we 100% commit our lives and commit to our own personal walk with Jesus, the lives where people saw us doing things and living in ways that all but glorified God. After we make that, the most important decision we will ever make, our AD life begins, the world uses AD which stands for “Anno Domini”. I’m going to be honest I have no clue what that means, but AD to me means “After Death”, after the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ, who died for our sins, so that whoever believes in Him, will not perish but have eternal life. (John 3:16), but also “After Death” because when we make that decision to follow Christ, our old selves die off and we are born again, because “if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, the old has passed away; the new has come.” (2 Corinthians 5:17).
Our BC doesn’t define who we are, it has passed away. So while its constant struggle to fight and rustle with the sins of the past, we are born again in Christ, the new has come. Our BC does not define our AD.